Hi, I guess I should write about how it feels to be single at this age after being married for so long, was with my husband for 21 years.
Well, the internet did not exist then, you had to limit your possiblities to guys you knew from school, your friends friends, etc., the farthest you met someone, was on vacation.. Now the whole world is a possiblity thanks to how easy it is to communicate now with IM, emails, skype.com, voipdiscount.com(cheap phone calls)etc.
I have to say that since I divorced I have only met worthwhile men online, and it is such an intense way because what you have inside is what matters most, your looks are not as important and you can get to a deeper level of intimacy much faster, since sex and attraction in the physical sense is not involved for some time, you have a real feel of a person before ever meeting them. I have had some relationships with men from very far away and they have been on the whole quite interesting. Of course being the ultimate romantic, I did not dis think distance was such a determining factor, but in reality it is, because even if you feel something deep for someone, not being able to live it out is quite frustrating. I actually travelled twice to meet men 4000km. away. LOL
One relationship lasted for a year and a half, it was everything I wanted until the distance made it fade and too complicated. Not learning that lesson on time, I met another man whom I chatted and skyped and of course long phone calls, it was great, he was a real sweetheart, but we met and he felt nothing for me, can not tell you how it feels to hit such a wall, to realize that the internet can be only a fantasy.
So after that pretty devastating experience, I tried to stay closer to home, at least the same continent, LOL
Not much interesting in this area, here where I live, men are quite chavinistic, and I tend to be a bit strong, they can not handle me, LOL.
Well, the other day I was minding my own business online as usual, I have the computer on alot when I am home and I love to read the news and do chat with lots of friends from all over the world, when I got skyped, someone just contacts you, wants to chat. I usually ignore these requests but I let my curiosity get the best of me and accepted. When we started chatting I was pretty standoffish, because I usually don't like Argentine men. Well he was not stopping, I guess he had curiosity about me and we continued and he asked me out. Actually went out the very next day. Was not really in the mood to spend another boring night with some idiotic chavinist, lol. Probably just better to stay home, watch t.v., chat with friends, but he insisted, rushed me to get ready, and well, ok, I really like strong personalities,LOL.
He came to pick me up, I said, no, let's go in two cars, what if you are a serial killer?LOL
When he found out I actually traveled thousands of miles to meet some online love he could not stop laughing that I did not even want to get into his car, lol. Well, had a very nice night, surprised me that a man like him could have ground up in this lackluster country, lol.
We will see how this continues, if it is not meant to be, there are alot of other fish in the sea, the whole world is the ocean now, not just the local pond. I got a little bit carried away for my first entry, doubt anybody lasted this long to read through it, if you were brave enough to read all of these words, thanks.
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